on the other side of this world today
there is sorrow.
it’s unspeakably hard.
it has been the source of the darkness i have been feeling.
this blue boy.
beloved blue australian
with fur that looks wiry but wasn’t.
it was silky and soft to the touch.
perfect to catch tears.
she had him from the time he was just a puppy.
he has been her shadow.
always THERE for 15 long years.
just to be near her.
in her work room.
feeling her near him.
just to be with her.
that’s all he wanted.
even after he became blind.
she was his eyes.
he was such a gentleman always.
the last thing she had written to me was
after he’d eaten . . . he still enjoyed a little tug of war
with a favorite toy.
this is the hardest of hard.
we who have loved and lost
we know that sorrow.
it is the darkest dark.
a loss every bit as hard as losing a person.
it IS a person.
the person just happens to wear a fur coat.
cannot write more.
love to my vicki
and her jack.