where to start.
been here done this.
ad infinitum. ad nauseum.
but this time has come with explicit orders.
i just returned last night from intensive care unit of our heart hospital.
i’d been admitted to the ER early on a morning this week.
can’t now remember the date.
spent 6 hours in ER.
left with the marine.
gone 15 minutes down the road.
intense chest pain. the worst.
the marine had me back to ER in
he stayed with me in the ER room the entire time.
my heart went into major arterial fibrillation.
it feels just like when the paint can is put in that machine to mix it
you know… the ones at lowes or home depot.
i thought it was bursting out of my chest.
the pain was indescribable. in my head and my chest.
they finally got me down low enough to leave ER.
i was sent upstairs to intensive coronary care unit
where i’ve been the last two days and nights.
i was released just last night.
with all the meds i’m to take.
i’ve taken them properly.
last night i actually got a full night’s sleep.
haven’t had one in ages.
but i slept like a rock!
this morning the bp is back up.
198/93 and creeping.
just got a call from hospital.
and therefore this message.
am to stay quiet from now on.
very little tv
no calls on phone lasting over 3 minutes
no reading of news or watching news
in other words
no thoughts apparently of any kind!
” COMPLETE REST “
in all capital letters.
plus monitoring and reporting on regular basis.
and am instructed to see him again today.
this is getting to be a boring thing for you all to hear all the time.
but letting you know
i’m gone from my beloved peanut here.
yet. once again.
only this time i’m thinking for real and for long.
i am hurting that i have to give up the peanut
and each one of you.
it has given me nothing but joy sharing our lives here.
how odd to feel such love for people i’ve never even met.
but I DO.
i love each one of you.
you’ve added to my life immeasurably.
i have no aloneness.
thank you for being there and for being my friends.
i won’t be disconnecting this pc. i’ll never sell it.
but it must sit dark and quiet now for a long time.
until this malignant hypertension
no longer has the word malignant in it.
i know that you all wish me well.
believe me !
you are my friends.
you are every one of you . . .
dear to me.
i feel the love. the caring. the prayers. the white light.
and the universe is on my side.
it all helps.
my beloved wicked pirate
will turn off the comments now.
i don’t want to be tempted to get back on here and even read them.
then i’d try to reply…
then i’d be disobeying orders and feeling guilty…
knowing that i’m supposed to stay off this thing completely.
so . . . no point.
my main objective is to get WELL.
and live a long time.
long enough at least to see what jacob and blake are going to become!
the marine is being my rock.
and i really trust and like the new cardiologist.
so i’m in good hands all around.
never say never.
if i’m ever eventually allowed back on this thing i’ll be back.
so i’ll just say the old ending we have here . . .
til soon old bean.
it’s been a super swell ride!
snoopy hug to one and all.