Nov 242014
 

hello there old bean.

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white sweater and snow

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just thinking about it all.

you know.

here at the little wren house.

.

the clock is ticking.

the countdown begins.

.

the snow is either melting some . . .

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snow and shadowsvia:mariashriver.com

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or maybe still coming down some?

.

or maybe

you live where it’s sunny all year round ?

.

 regardless . . .

wherever you are . . .

there’s no escaping it.

.

if you live in america

it’s

almost

.

THANKSGIVING DAY!

.

yup.

it is old bean!

i don’t have to remind you here!

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and if you’re one of the masses who live

AWAY . . .

you know what that means.

in the few days leading up to it . . .

.

YOU ARE ON THE MOVE!

LOLOL!!!

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oh my.

scenes like this horror below !!!

.

 please.

.

just deliver me.

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airport

.

half of these people won’t even get there on time!

due to cancellations and delays due to weather.

YET

they do this

every single year.

.

masochists of the highest order.

.

lost luggage.

.

unbelievably long lines

.

tempers short.

.

sleeping sitting up on cold tile floors.

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basin baths in the ladies or men’s rooms.

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fighting for a stall in the mass of thousands.

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cold vending machine food

and

or

overpriced airport restaurants.

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whining crying children.

already exhausted from the crowds and unfamiliarity of it all . . .

wondering

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WHY???

WHAT ARE WE DOING HERE???

.

why?

LOLOL.

.

you KNOW why!!!

.

it’s

TRADITION.

.

well.

now.

this is just

sad.

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chubba and companychubbaandcompany.com

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YUP!

.

it’s

THANKSGIVING!

now take those silly hats off those poor dogs.

.

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 even i’m going somewhere this year.

i won’t be flying . . .

but driving. well. the marine will be driving.

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i’ve been invited to accompany

the marine

to a thanksgiving celebration with his late wife chris’s family.

.

every other year chris’s brother and sister~in~law

 always have thanksgiving at their beautiful home near tulsa.

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the odd years are spent at the other part of their family’s homes.

a nice solution . . . so that there’s never any hurt feelings or confusion.

and the travel is shared equally.

.

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martha … the marine’s sister in law …  is a most gracious hostess.

everything is always so artfully arranged.

.

crystal.

china.

just exquisitely done.

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she’s always so calm too.

she makes it seem effortless.

.

and i know

IT”S NOT !!!!

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beautiful tablevia:huffingtonpost.com

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 she’s a superb cook.

.

so it will be a real treat!

.

there will be a lot of people there.

the marine’s chris had two sisters and one brother.

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barbara with her husband wes

 cathy with her husband peter

 and richard with his wife martha.

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all are still well and living busy lives.

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a nice large extended family with children

 and grandchildren.

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they’ll all be there.

except for peter and cathy.

they were just there last month.  now they’re in france.

they go there every year about this time.

.

so.

not my usual holiday alone this year!

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i’m usually quite happy right here alone.

.

i can never get anybody to believe me about that.

.

it’s just not normal to most people.

.

LOLOL!!!

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but it is the truth nevertheless.

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it was a process i think at first.

and it might put things into perspective for you too . . .

IF

you’re alone this year and new to it . . .

or any year you find yourself alone really . . .

i hope you find a cozy comfort here

at the peanut.

.

ever since my bob died i have generally always been alone

on holidays.

the marine and his family lived away.

or they might usually go to richard and martha’s even back then.

and

the rest of my own family is all deceased.

.

SO

yup.

.

and you know something?

.

i have come to prefer spending holidays at home alone actually.

YES!

i know.

people generally don’t admit that.

the majority of people fight being alone.

.

they get all depressed.

.

they feel they’re missing out on the real party.

it seems that society is geared to make you feel that way.

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BUT

I DON’T !

i never have really.

.

and you don’t have to either!

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maybe your

own alone

is be being forced upon you.

.

you live too far from your family to go there.

it’s so expensive to travel now.

.

or

you’re going through a divorce or a break up.

or

the very worst . . .

.

the loss of someone dear to you due to death.

yes.

that is the worst of all.

.

and regarding that kind of alone . . .

if that’s the case . . . and it’s the first time alone for you . . .

this is NOT the time to go it alone.

you WILL grow stronger.  i promise.

you will.

.

but right now . . .

you’ll need to be around those who love you.

time is the only real healer.

and the first holiday without that person you lost

 is not the one to be alone.

.

that being said . . .

IF

you’re just a little out of pocket this year . . .

and for whatever reason it looks like it might be the new norm . . .

for whatever the reasons . . .

.

or

maybe if you’re like me

.

you are simply just

 a friendly hermit !

yup!

and i’m thinking there are more of us out there than we realize.

.

even though i might love all the people involved . . .

social functions

small or large . . . well . . .

they just

make me feel anxious.

.

even though i always enjoy myself immensely . . .

i come back home exhausted.

.

i can’t explain it.  nor do i even try to anymore.

it’s always been that way.  even when bob was alive.

.

sure it may have to do with childhood . . .  or not.

growing up moving so much perhaps?

who knows?

who really cares?

i’m happy with who i am.

.

i am old bean!

i’m just a friendly hermit.

.

and

NO.

.

i

am

not

a serial killer.

.

those are apparently loners who crave what they can never find.

or some such thing or other.

i’m sure they are crazy in some terrible and sad way.

they would HAVE to be . . . to do what they do.

.

on the other hand

.

friendly hermits are just what they are.

they are not hurtful nor selfish.

.

they

are just

contentedly happy

people

who enjoy being alone for the most part

and living a simple life.

.

they are glad for friends and family

but

they are most content and comfortable

 with their own company.

.

my beloved gram was a friendly hermit.

SO . . .

it’s quite possible that i come by it naturally!

 . . .  maybe it’s just in my DNA.  hadn’t thought about that til now.

.

friendly hermits.

.

they

 love people for sure. and they feel deeply.

especially for their family and friends.

.

but

seeing those people in crowds is just not their

cup of turkey.

.

i

mean

tea.

.

many of the peanut readers here all have nice families . . .

lots of children.  grandchildren.  extended families.

and many many of them

are accomplished cooks . . .

almost bordering on

professional

CHEFS !!!

you know who you are!!!

LOLOL.

.

alas.

alack.

and as it were!!!

.

it’s just the family way on holidays.

and they will treasure their preparations and meals with everyone.

just as they should.

.

i’m not knockin’ it !!!

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three dogsvia:twirlit.com

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and i’m sure it’s all well worth it.

just ask those family members above!

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though i did read one lady’s comment on a blog today.

she said the thought of doing it all again this year left her

exhausted just thinking about it.  she was totally dreading it.

but she also said she would get it done.  a martyr if there ever was one.

. . .

how sad is that!

.

maybe only SHE’S the one who’s expecting perfection from herself.

nine thousand side dishes when only one or two would suffice.

.

simplicity

is a beautiful concept.

even

at

thanksgiving.

.

OR

how about

 not even serving the traditional food at all ?

.

people are so hard on themselves.

and for what?

.

the big family traditional dinner . . .

the stuff of

LEGEND!!!

.

BUT

for some of us . . .  those times are past.

and oddly enough there’s a grand comfort in not having to go through all that anymore.

.

a lovely quiet day just alone.

.

reading in sunlightjessie willcox smith

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and i’m here to tell you

that

if

you are alone

.

it’s not all bad!

.

SO

ARE YOU?

ALONE?

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if you are . . . then . . .

this post is meant for you.

.

if you want to accept invitations . . . by all means . . .

DO!

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but . . .

for some of us . . .

we simply relish staying in and cozy in our own little home.

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 realize one thing though.

people don’t know how to accept that simple fact.

.

always i could be assured of hearing these kind words at my office.

over and over again.

”  you’re not going to be alone now are you? “

.

so thoughtful of them really.

BUT . . .

i could never EVER convince them it was fine with me.

.

as if that’s the

single

WORST!

thing that could befall a person!

alone on a holiday!!!

.

SO

if this year you’re alone for the first time . . .

or if you’re well used to it yourself now

and have your own ideas to add here . . .

feel free!

.

here are some of my own . . .

 HOLIDAYS ALONE TRADITIONS!!!

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first.

have a yummy warm and filling breakfast.

.

porridge for breakfastartist:jessie willcox smith

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one of my new pleasures every morning now

 is watching re~runs of

FRASIER

.

frasier

.

emmy award winners for years.

.

such television quality!

.

still fresh.

after all these years.

.

niles and frasier

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i still laugh right out loud at those shows.

excellent writing.  classy.  witty.  often profound.

and

i love the quirkiness of all the characters . . .

frasier .  niles.  the dad.  daphne.  roz.

and

not to forget

.

 eddie!

.

played

BRILLIANTLY

by the

little movie star . . .

moose.

.

brilliant eddie

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the key to this for me is simply

starting the day with

laughter.

.

the best medicine.

ALWAYS.

ANY DAY!

.

BUT . . .

oh wait !  i plum forgot!

  on thanksgiving maybe you’ll want to watch

THE

PARADE!

in the morning!!!

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the paradecourtesy:coconutheadssurvival.com

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but of course charlie brown !!!

the famous macy’s thanksgiving day parade.

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then . . .

take yourself a nice long hot shower or bath.

pretend you’re even at a spa.

.

and if you live in

venice florida . . .

take a cool shower!

LOLOL.

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then . . .

go to your closet.

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ahhhh . . .

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getting dressedjessie willcox smith

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simply get dressed in something that you love.

something totally comfortable.

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if you’re new at this and you’re feeling a little sad . . .

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choose a color that picks up your mood.

.

then remind yourself how

COMFORTABLE

you are!

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have a movie marathon.

all the corny wonderful silly movies you love and other people endure.

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i usually decorate my tree while one of these favorite movies is on.

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by now . . .

i’m in the mood for christmas!

.

holly

.

OR

maybe you’re a gal that likes football.

or you’re a guy that

LOVES IT!

LOL.

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if football is your game . . .

WOW.

this is the day for it.

.

just kick back and watch them all!

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football gamerob tringali/sportschrome/getty images

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thanksgiving day is meant for you!!!

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just enjoy game after game.

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forget thanksgiving food.

eat ALL the stuff you’re not usually supposed to eat!

.

just for today

indulge.

.

eat all your favorites.

plan ahead.

.

easy things to prepare or even pick up from your favorite source.

.

THIS IS THE DAY FOR COMFORT!

.

DO NOT WASTE ONE MOMENT IN GUILT !!!!

.

AND

who says it has to be turkey?

if spaghetti is your favorite . . .

.

it is one of mine!

.

simple spaghettiassociatedpress

.

YUM !!!!

.

my meatballs are soy meatballs by morning star farm.

and they

are

DELICIOUS!!!

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i make my own sauce.

.

see ?

it’s easy.

.

the secret is to do whatever makes you

joyful !

.

don’t think about things.

don’t over think it.  that’s the secret.

DON’T

travel down memory lane if you’re alone on a holiday.

just simply

DON’T.

.

that’s the best advice of all.

it’s easy to let yourself get all morbid and depressed

thinking about all the

used~to~be stuff.

it’s pointless.

it only leads to pain.

it takes some discipline.  but you can do it.

.

and a word about music.

music can ignite some powerful memories.

best to forego it if you’re prone to lapsing into melancholy over it.

just for the holiday.

.

BUT

on the other hand . . .

if you’re a music nut

and it doesn’t connect to anything painful that’s gone from your life now . . .

well then

GO FOR IT!!!

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it’s all so very personal.

everyone has their own wonderful little holiday traditions.

AND

that’s the key.

.

THIS IS A NEW DAY.

.

this is the first thanksgiving of the rest of your life.

well.

or something like that!

LOLOL.

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i love this picture below.

not just because of the beauty of the lamp and table.

the minimal spare beauty of it all . . .

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lovely vignettevia:contentinacottage.com ~ photographer tim ghie ~ behance.net

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but some of the words are pretty neat too.

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one year i helped serve the homeless in a shelter kitchen on the holiday.

.

rewarding and horribly sad at the same time.

realized my makeup is not able to take that kind of pain.

.

their faces stayed with me . . . especially the children’s . . .

 much too long.

too long for my own good really.

so now i help in other ways.

.

and

i just stay home and have my spaghetti.

.

wow.

this post has gone on wayyyyyy too long!

you may even be gone by now.

.

hello!!!

hello?

anybody out there?

.

LOLOL.

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dearest old bean . . .

if you’re still here . . .

i wish you all good things this thanksgiving.

all the things i’m so grateful for myself  . . .

.

health.

the right kind of wealth.

and

love.

.

be safe.

til soon old bean!

til soon.

Nov 192014
 

shell on beacharistocrator.tumblr.com

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i got word last night that a dear friend of mine

died of cancer on friday.

.

i haven’t shed a tear.

.

it was a long 8 year battle.

even she wanted it over.

in the last year

she has suffered much.

.

how many lives in my life has cancer stalked.

and last year . . .

even my own.

.

one becomes numb to the very word.

.

today

i feel only relief for her sweet body and soul.

.

she will be missed.

.

but it’s blessedly over for her.

.

the rest of us . . .

.

well.

.

even with it all . . .

it’s still good to be alive i think.

.

i wish people would be more kind to each other.

.

i wish people like the senator from my state of oklahoma

wouldn’t embarrass me

when he says

” global warming is a conspiracy.”

.

good grief.

.

 i wish every single thing we say or thing would not be

politicized.

.

i wish people could work together to make this world better.

i wish they cared less about money

and more about the planet.

.

 i wish that

cancer

wasn’t

in truth

a

HUGE BUSINESS

.

an

INDUSTRY

that is

RICH

in real estate.

in highly specialized technical jobs.

in machinery.

in drugs.

.

they keep asking for

more and more and more

money.

you know.

for research.

.

i have donated much money to

the cause

in the past.

.

CANCER.

.

my mother died of it.

my husband.

my sister in law.

bob’s dad.

bob’s uncles and aunts.

so many …  many

of my friends.

the latest one just last friday.

.

i gave and gave and gave.

from a sense of duty.

from guilt?

.

i’m alive.

they’re dead.

.

so i must help.

.

but not anymore.

you may be shocked.

but i refuse to give anymore.

.

if

IF

the cancer industry

didn’t have to keep going

.

didn’t have to keep providing so many jobs . . .

wasn’t part of the medical infrastructure itself . . .

a monster that needs supporting . . .

FOREVER it seems . . .

.

well . . .

.

 

maybe there would be a cure.

.

so.

we will keep living in this world

this

imperfect

beautiful

horrible

wonderful

world.

.

it’s all a paradox isn’t it?

.

just a few days ago . . .

one soul left.

another little soul arrived.

.

one of my dearest friends welcomed

a tiny new grand daughter.

.

she’s beautiful and healthy.

she has a little “big sister” who is overjoyed.

as is her entire family.

.

that’s the beauty of life.

.

we take our turn here on this stage.

we endure what we have to endure.

we enjoy what we’re privileged to enjoy.

.

and we smile through our tears.

.

and . . .

if you live in buffalo new york . . .

.  .  .

stay safe.

stay warm.

the rest of us are watching.

and

our hearts are with you.

.

til soon old bean.

til soon.

Nov 172014
 

YUP.

this used to be me too.

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car lights in snowcourtesy:news9.com

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out there with everybody!

trying to get to work.

.

scraping the windshield.

.

warming up the engine.

.

starting your drive an hour earlier.

.

tensing up when those daredevils swerve too fast

or follow you too closely.

.

never just light fluffy snow with traction.

.

on no . . .

driving on ICE

with a covering of light snow.

always the ice.

.

that’s how our winter comes here on the prairie.

.

there’s always a thick layer of ice first.

.

schools are closed today.

but

you’re always expected to get to work.

even if you have to be late.

.

so silly really.

if you think about it.

.

the curse i guess of modern day living.

nothing ever simply stops for a little while now.

.

i would hate to be one of the hundreds of

fender benders this morning . . .

.

because later today the temp will be 37 degrees with sun.

the snow will melt.

all that would make the difference would be a few hours.

.

and tomorrow there will be patches of black ice.

because all the water will re-freeze solid tonight.

.

but for the most part the beautiful

WHITE

of it will all be gone.

it will be like a dream.

.

we at least got some moisture at last!

that’s the blessing in it for us in

DRY LAND.

.

and

like becky said

if you don’t

HAVE TO

get out in it

you can enjoy its splendorous beauty!

.

it was so lovely to sit here in the wren house yesterday

and simply watch it come down . . .

.

falling snowcourtesy:becuo.com

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and it is

so very beautiful!

.

perhaps like all things beautiful . . .

it’s because

HERE

we know it’s fleeting.

.

i remember years in northern minnesota and upstate new york

when it started in september and was still snowing in the spring!

.

SO

i simply relax and enjoy it now.

.

and that is the perk.

one of the wonderful perks

that come with being

old.

.

i don’t even mind that word anymore!

LOLOL.

.

aside from something in your body somewhere

constantly

hurting

or else not working properly the way it should

as in your crazy

heart

.

ALL

the time

every darn day

.

LOLOL!

YES!!!

.

besides

ALL THAT . . .

there are definitely

PERKS!

.

and the main perk that comes to mind right now . . .

.

i no longer have to worry

about

GETTING THERE.

.

it’s true.

you can enjoy the beautiful snow

if you don’t

HAVE TO

get out in it.

.

just stay home.

be cozy.

have one of these.

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gif firecourtesy:everysingleinsanity.tumblr.com

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even if you have to fake it with a dvd!

LOL.

.

now.

i’m going to gaze upon this picture below . . .

and conjure up

wonderful spice filled memories of my childhood.

.

when my gram made homemade donuts

just like these.

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donutscourtesy:posiegetscozy.com

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a glass of cold milk.  a warm donut.

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life didn’t get much better.

.

home from school on a snow day!

.

that’s  just how i feel today.

.

let the cozy adventure begin!

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

.

and if you’re where it’s snowy and icy . . .

and you have to be out in it . . .

my heart to yours in your car.

be safe old bean.  be safe.

Nov 152014
 

uh oh !!!

YUP !!!

.

this is supposed to happen here sometime tomorrow!

.

snow on catcourtesy:imgur.com

.

SNOW!

falling on little cats’ heads.

.

and on the rest of our heads if we’re out there.

.

our first snow of the season here !!!

.

I DO SO LOVE THE SNOW !!!

though

i’m almost afraid to admit it here out loud

when so many of you have tons of it for so long.

wayyyy  toooo long really.

and i know that you must get sick of it.

.

kind of like our endlessly dry and overly hot summers.

they go on forever and ever and ever . . .

and

we see everyone else get the rain.

.

everybody has their own stuff to live with i guess.

.

but i’m excited about tomorrow’s forecast!

to me it makes everything so beautiful.

fresh.

clean.

sparkling.

.

AND

it means

that today . . .

i do a few little things to get ready

for the new winter season.

.

one of my favorite things

in the winter . . .

.

IS

sitting inside

.

WITH

the snow outside

.

red tartan

 .

and

homemade vegetable soup fragrance

filling the little wren house.

.

and

 lamps lighted

creating a warm golden glow in the room.

.

and

a good book.

right there on the table by my chair.

.

OH YES!

.

.

well.

no!

that’s not a picture of my wren house above.

it is beautiful though isn’t it?

.

BUT

 mine looks just as cozy.

it sure does old bean.

.

    you see . . .

it’s time

for

TARTAN!

.

every room in the wintertime cries out for

just a touch

of

red tartan.

.

well.

it doesn’t even have to be red really.

simply tartan will do

thank you!

.

as a couple of the pictures below prove . . .

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tartan br 1this and following two pictures courtesy of:belclairehouse.com

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personally . . .

i’d have to cozy this room up a bit . . .

with a worn old beautiful persian carpet on the floor.

and

of course i’d change that pillow!  yuk.

i would use a deep teal blue to pick up one of the colors in the carpet.

even a buffalo plaid would have been a better choice.

or . . . a floral.

YES!

floral goes beautifully with tartan surprisingly enough.

.

LOLOL.

isn’t this fun?

.

WHAT ???

YOU SAY ???

i’ve lost the men in the audience?

.

oh.

well.

you really should hang in there guys.

one just for you is coming up.

no.

not this next one . . .

.

tartan br 2

.

so lovely.

always love a touch of nautical.

.

but . . .

down below . . .

here ya go!

.

though

again.

what’s with the cold floors?

.

sorry.

but I like stepping out onto something warm first thing

in the morning.

or last thing at night.

.

so . . .

at least just a rug by the bed please.

.

tartan br 3

.

brown tartan.

for the gentleman.

.

very english looking.

and

completely enticing!

.

especially if that gentleman smells like this . . .

.

smell of pinecourtesy of:it’sabeautifulride

.

oh!  be still my heart!

.

.

back to earth tammy.

.

.

SO.

alas and alack

and

as it were.

.

the little wren house is ready for

winter.

LOLOL

YUP.

we totally skipped

AUTUMN

you know.

here where i live.

while the rest of you were awing and gasping at the beauty of trees turning

.

.

 each year now . . .

we seem to go straight from high summer

right into winter.

.

but that’s okay.

i’m not going to gritch about the weather here.

.

” too late tammy.  guess what?  you already have! “

.

OH DRAT.

see how the

ATTITUDE

of that woman

creeps in?

.

well.

back to the important stuff.

.

my winter wren house.

.

it’s no longer 106 degrees in the shade out there.

time to bring on

THE COZY!

.

and being minimalist as i am . . .

i do it not with a lot of stuff sitting around . . .

but with color and more importantly

TEXTURE!

.

nothing says to me cozy and warm better than

soft throws and velveteen pillows in rich colors.

.

these are on my bed now.

.

red velvet pillows

mine are actually a bit deeper red than these and not as bright.

.

 more like a beautiful claret wine when you hold it up to the light.

gorgeous.

.

 the richness and softness is what’s important for me to feel.

and

they’re simply beautiful in fulfilling that department.

.

key word to me . . .

you know . . .  is always . . .

.

simple.

.

and

as a runner on the large glass topped table between my two white wicker chairs

you’ll find

THIS!

.

there are crystal cut glass candle holders on it . . .

but instead of candles . . .

two of them hold large smooth stones that came from

a river in idaho.

carved by the water thousands of years ago.

the stones were a gift to me from my marine.

from one of his hikes in the mountains there.

.

i love rustic and elegant together.

.

tartan on table

.

i also love this particular tartan pattern.

.

it’s just beautiful against white wicker and glass

with dark wood sitting nearby.

.

ahem . . .

as in . . .

the little notorious dark wood table that spawned a torn rotator cuff!!!!

.

we won’t mention that.

.

but i do still love that little table.

.

 .

and next . . .

here are some wonderfully happy pictures of tartan.

i use the word happy.

i don’t know why.

tartan simply has always made me feel happy.

all my life.  even in childhood.

.

can tartan be in one’s

DNA ???

.

 tartan on bench
pinterest

.

ivy clad tartancourtesy:ivyclad.com

.

slim paley photocourtesy:slimpaley.com … a slim paley photo

.

and finally . . .

.

tartan tablecourtesy:pinterest

.

whoa!

excuse me please.

but

it’s almost time to get ready for dinner.

.

it’s to be a rather formal affair this evening you know.

i don’t often indulge in those evenings.

but it’s an old friend.

.

we’re toasting to her book she just published.

her room above is all ready for us.

and i’m very excited.

.

what am i wearing you ask?

.

tartan heel

with my little black dress

BUT OF COURSE !!!!

.

seriously tammy?

LOLOLOL

.

i know i know.

you’d have to wheel me in there if i had those things on.

LOLOLOL.

.

just wanted to see if you’re still paying attention.

.

til soon old bean!

til soon.

Nov 122014
 

THIS

is

how

i came to think about

it.

marine corps

the globe and anchor

.

well.

of course you recognize it.

.

the marine corps emblem

.

it’s a symbol

of

 what introduced me . . .

.

or shall i say

who

introduced me

to

my

new best friend!

.

.

if you have a marine in your life like i do . . .

regular peanut readers all know him . . .

my brother.

the marine.

.

here’s one of my favorite pictures of him below . . .

it was one christmas at

mike and reve’s house.

( his son and daughter~in~law )

.

he’s 65 years old.

and he’s a

past master at self discipline.

.

he’s still in that exact same shape today.

only there’s more silver in his hair now.

.

he’s very tanned all year round.

this picture’s light is pale and odd.

and i wish he had looked up.

but . . .

we’re lucky to have any at all.

he’s not into having his picture taken.

.

(note the globe and anchor buckle)

a gift from his son.

.

my favorite pic

.

i digressed.

.

if you’re lucky enough to know a marine . . .

.

AND

it that marine is still embodying what he was taught

in the corps . . .

.

like my own is

.

then you will already know about this.

.

the crucible.

.

you thought marine boot camp was hard?

.

nope.

.

not grueling enough apparently.

.

they’re still not a

marine

until they complete

the crucible.

.

the final test.

.

crucible

.

they have to endure

that 54 solid hours.

very little sleep.

4 small meals … rather … MRE’s

.

no shelter

.

all weather extremes

.

constant brutal tests for 54 hours straight.

.

wire

.

tests of endurance

.

swamp

.

on their backs

.

skills of combat

.

survival tactics

.

teamwork

.

almost therecourtesy:leatheneck.com

.

teamwork

.

leadership

.

night maneuvers

day and night marches

.

pressing on.

.

 pressing on.

.

if a man

or a woman

were ever going to learn

self discipline

it would be in

the crucible.

.

if you survive and make it through

the crucible

( and four young marines died in a swamp one year )

. . .

you have the honor for the rest of your life

to call yourself

.

a marine.

.

earned

.

and only after you’ve made it through the crucible

are you addressed

as a marine.

and

only then.

.

dress blues

.

simple as that.

.

SO.

when my marine quietly and gently said these words to me . . .

.

” it’s a shame you have to give up something you enjoy so much

just because of discipline. “

.

and of course he meant

LACK

of discipline.

but was being too kind to say it.

.

i got the simple message.

.

so

yes.

for what it’s worth . . .

i’m back here.

sitting at the peanut.

.

all the drama.

my goodness tammy.

such a drama queen.

.

a simple little blood clot

stacked up

against the crucible.

.

and no.

i’m in no way comparing myself to a marine!!!!

.

good lord.

i’d never make it past the first hour.

what am i saying???

the first 3 minutes !!!

let alone all the way to the crucible.

.

i do realize blood clots are life threatening

and dangerous.

i’m not taking that lightly at all.

BUT

i’m not going to let it define my life either.

.

i found myself getting depressed.

and

that’s not me.

.

 i fear depression.  it’s a health breaker.

and i believe that it’s as dangerous to your health

as a simple blood clot or other heart problems.

.

AND . . .

my self discipline needs all the help it can get !!!

i still admit to a computer addiction.

.

SO

MEET MY NEW BEST FRIEND !

.

oven timer

YUP !

a simple little oven timer.

( seems vaguely like i did this before . . . )

LOLOL ???

.

anyway . . .

i will set it for

one hour

in the morning.

.

ticking the minutes away while i’m here at this computer.

.

then when it DINGS

I’M OUTTA HERE!

.

then in the afternoon or evening

i can set it for another hour here.

.

any old blood clot should be able to handle that for pete’s sake.

.

GOOD GRIEF CHARLIE BROWN!

alas!

alack!

and

as it were!

.

so

i’ll get to lurk around all your blogs again!!!

and even post some traditionally

OVER~LONG posts right HERE

on the old peanut.

.

another area for much needed self discipline right there.

LOLOL.

.

and

well.

maybe the self discipline thanks to my useful new best friend

will rub off into ALL the other areas of my life

that could use a little

you know . . .

.

discipline!

.

what a nice word.

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

.

semper fi.

Nov 032014
 

Lemon3courtesy:organicfacts.net

.

well.

i used a beautiful healthy lemon for the picture on this post.

because

today

i used a descriptive word i hardly ever use!

.

a dear friend told me i should write this post.

and not just

STOP

posting for awhile.

she’s kind and thoughtful.

and i’m following her lead.

.

SO

here i am.

telling you

YES

one more time

.

i’m having to take a break from here.

.

i know. i know.

i seem to always sound just like the

boy who cried

WOLF !

.

i’m back on the blood thinning drug

Xaralto.

.

i’m not complaining.

it saves my life.

.

and since i am flat out like a lizard . . .

ADDICTED

to

this computer

.

and to tell you the truth . . .

it has come at a good time.

i’m actually kind of tired of my own voice.

.

BUT . . .

.

to help this blood clot again

this time in the right leg

i’ve got to stay away from here.

.

leave no comments on this post please.

.

we all know i’d feel i had to get back on this to answer!

LOLOL!!!

.

oh yes.

see how i digressed?

.

the reason i used the picture of the lemons

is because

it’s certifiable . . .

.

my health for the past

TWO YEARS

has simply

SUCKED !!!

.

just like sucking a lemon.

.

BITTER !!!

i’ve just GOT to get back on track.

can’t keep this silly bad health going.

.

so.

i’m obeying orders once again.

i’ll be back.

but not too soon old bean.

not too soon!

.

LOVE YOU ALL.

and you know who you are.

Nov 012014
 

SORRY !!!

.

apts

a picture of my wren house apartments.

,

not the name of the apartments of course.

just my little apartment.

.

because it’s so tiny.

only

525 square feet.

but

oh so cozy !

,

and beautiful really.

if i do say so myself!

LOLOL.

.

.

the cozy minimalist

.

my other blog.

.

remember the cozy m?

.

WELL . . .

.

my dear captain has just saved all the posts

that were on

‘ the cozy minimalist ‘

.

AND . . .

.

we’re going to let it go back into the ether.

.

it will be

no more.

.

all of the cozy m posts

will now be included

alphabetically

on

the

peanut here.

.

BUT !!!

.

apparently there’s a side effect when you do that

it

sends you your own comment on that post

BACK TO YOU!!!

.

at least it does on a wordpress blog!

.

who knew?

.

i’m sorry.

if you would just delete them all . . .

it will be overwith now.

.

I THANK MY CAPTAIN

for

doing this for me on a weekend.

.

when he should be watching

a

football game!!!

.

again. my apologies.

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

Oct 292014
 

GET OVER YOURSELVES

.

The kardashians arriving at Naimie's Beauty Center in Los Angelescourtesy:sawfirst.com

.

yes.

yes.

we know.

you have huge

butts

and

huge

boobs

and

bad marriages.

and

no talent

except for getting your pictures

EVERYWHERE

CONSTANTLY

.

even if it has to be

a

SELFIE.

for pete’s sake.

.

kim selfiecourtesy:hellomagazine.uk.

.

really?

we’re that stuck on ourselves are we?

.

.

and

.

GET OVER YOURSELVES

.

you singers who look like you’re

SCREAMING

( actually most of you are )

and

yet

it’s

called

SINGING

now.

.

or are you merely

constipated

and in a lot of pain?

.

.

get over yourselves.

YOU ALL

LOOK

ALIKE

and

YOU

ALL

SOUND

ALIKE

.

BOR~ING

.

 adele

.

actually she has a lovely voice.

but spare us the contorted face please.

.
adelecourtesy:onpoint.wbur.org

.

adam

.

adamcourtesy:tvguide.com

.

jazz singer… name unknown to me

.

jazz singercourtesy:pccjazz.com

.

even the piano player thinks she’s in pain

.

christina

.

chrisinacourtesy:rollingstone.com

.

steven

.

wow stevie.

you’re gettin’ a little old to be screamin’ that hard.

you might just

bust

something!

see his carotid artery sticking out there?

.

stevencourtesy:rollingstone.com

.

nine inch nails

.

okay.

i’m tired.

and

i rest my case.

.

my ears hurt just

WATCHING

these

people.

.

i mean

singers.

.

really?

nine inch nailscourtesy:engadget.com

.

.

.

 GET OVER YOURSELVES

YES.

the lazy louts . . .

.

ALL

the people out there

who

are

too

DAMNED

LAZY

to

simply

put

the

blasted cart

BACK

where it belongs.

.

NOT

in spaces between cars.

.

how hard is it?

.

 cartscourtesy:shannongreen.blogspot.com

.

SERIOUSLY ???

.

seriouslycourtesy:shannongreen.blogspot.com

.

that’s just

PITIFUL.

.

.

yes.

i’m apparently

grumpy tonight.

.

sorry.

.

just thinking about some of these things.

and now . . .

.

i’m going to turn on the

boob tube

.

funny.  wonder where boob tube came from?

well … we know the tube part.

TV’s used to have picture tubes.

but the boob part?

.

not kardashian type boobs surely.

more like

boob as in . . . what?

stupid?

.

well i’m going to turn on the stupid tv

and since there’s nothing on PBS right now

but news . . .

i’m going to watch

the cartoon for adults

that’s NOT dirty either . . .

it’s

King of the Hill

.

i like it!

LOLOLOL.

i know .  i know.

there’s no accounting for

TASTE !!!

.

but hey . . .

GET OVER YOURSELF!

LOLOLOL !!!!

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

Oct 272014
 

TRICK

or

TREAT !!!

.

NO !!!

NO NO KITTY !!!

.

don’t open that door for pete’s sake !!!!

.

trick or treatcourtesyof:contentinacottage.com via little french bulldog blog.

.

many of you have read about my

ZEKE.

.

BUT

if you’re

NEW

to the peanut here . . .

or . . .

even if you’re

OLD

     and just never have met him before  . . .

.

PLEASE!

meet

my

ZEKE.

.

click right over there on his picture

in the side bar for an introduction.

 and

.  .  .

THEN

.

you could always read his little story.

i did a post on him once.

with

 more pictures of him.

.

don’t worry.

it’s

a

very

short

post.

.

just as my time with him was too short.

.

BUT

every second

every split second

was worth it.

.

AND

the pictures of him in it are good.

.

he’s definitely a guy worth meeting !

.

the posts are in

alphabetical order.

.

just click on

‘ get ready for some zekey love ‘

.

that zeke.

that fine gentleman.

he was my own heart beat.

.

AND YES

HE LOVED KITTIES !!!!

.

sometimes he found it hard to believe

they didn’t automatically love him back!

LOLOL.

but still . . . he loved them.

.

a lot of dogs do.

.

i have a beautiful friend

ATLAS

who

has always wanted his

very own kitty.

.

atlas lives in hope to this very day.

.

at least there’s finally one in the house where he lives now.

whether it can be called

HIS

is another story.

LOLOL!!!

.

well.

have a wonderful happy and safe

HALLOWEEN

everybody.

.

and a great week.

.

til soon old bean!

til soon.

Oct 262014
 

that

simple raisin toast

.

raisin toastcourtesy:sodahead.com

.

can make this little wren house smell

HEAVENLY!

.

and i didn’t even have to bake anything!

LOLOLOL!!!

i just eat it!

sometimes with crunchy peanut butter on top.

.

.

.

that

it’s still a fact . . .

.

little children don’t always need

electronics and batteries

to have a good time.

.

and that makes me happy.

.

sand playcourtesy:goodmenproject.com

.

.

that

i’m so glad i didn’t pack away my summer clothes.

.

it’s still high summer here.

every other day !!!

good grief charlie brown.

.

shorts and tshirtcourtesy:shopfanatico.com

.

yesterday we broke a record.

it was 92 degrees in my city.

33.3333 Celsius.

.

today . . .

well . . .

today . . .

GOSH!  it’s a veritable COLD FRONT!

LOLOL.

.

87 degrees.

30.5556 Celsius

.

87 in novcourtesy:koco.com

.

i’m right under oklahoma city

in that triangular shaped county.

yup.

.

.

that

whenever i feel just like

THIS . . .

.

angry pupcourtesy:newsiosity.com

.

and believe you me

sometimes

I DO !

.

it really doesn’t usually last very long.

.

it doesn’t take much to make me happy.

.

thank goodness for that !

LOL.

.

.

that

long long ago

in a galaxy

far far away . . .

.

minnesota as a matter of fact . . .

.

my english teacher . . . mr mac vey

taught us how to

SET OUR MENTAL ALARM CLOCK.

.

wake upcourtesy:szeretlekmagyarorszag.hu

.

and it

never fails me.

.

it hasn’t yet !!!

.

it’s one of the best things i ever learned.

.

.

that

finally . . .

i love the taste of water.

i didn’t always.

but now i do.

especially

with a little slice of lemon in it!

.

so fresh!

so healthy!

.

water with lemoncourtesy:engine2diet.com

.

my wish for you today old bean . . .

is

THAT

you have a wonderful week coming up!

.

and

THAT

you

love

your

life.

.

it’s good.

.

til soon old bean!

til soon.

.

P.S.

ever notice how the word

that

is sort of strange ?

especially when you say it a lot ?

like

that.

LOLOLOL !!!!