Aug 222014
 

Sent Tammy an email to check on her knowing full well she would be peeking. Sure enough, she answered.

Says she is doing ok and misses everyone. Seeing the cardiologist next week and go from there. Her arm still hurts and the heat is bothering her. But she sounds good.

I know comments are down and you are all concerned. I’ll update until she returns.

Capt. Fritter

Aug 152014
 

hello there.

where to start.

been here done this.

before.

ad infinitum. ad nauseum.

.

but this time has come with explicit orders.

.

i just returned last night from intensive care unit of our heart hospital.

i’d been admitted to the ER early on a morning this week.

  can’t now remember the date.

.

spent 6 hours in ER.

left with the marine.

gone 15 minutes down the road.

intense chest pain.  the worst.

difficulty breathing.

.

the marine had me back to ER in

five minutes.

he’s amazing.

.

he stayed with me in the ER room the entire time.

my heart went into major arterial fibrillation.

it feels just like when the paint can is put in that machine to mix it

you know… the ones at lowes or home depot.

.

i thought it was bursting out of my chest.

the pain was indescribable. in my head and my chest.

.

they finally got me down low enough to leave ER.

i was sent upstairs to intensive coronary care unit

where i’ve been the last two days and nights.

.

i was released just last night.

with all the meds i’m to take.

.

i’ve taken them properly.

last night i actually got a full night’s sleep.

haven’t had one in ages.

but i slept like a rock!

.

however

 this morning the bp is back up.

198/93 and creeping.

.

just got a call from hospital.

and therefore this message.

.

am to stay quiet from now on.

very little tv

no computer

no calls on phone lasting over 3 minutes

no reading of news or watching news

.

in other words

no thoughts apparently of any kind!

.

” COMPLETE REST “

in all capital letters.

plus monitoring and reporting on regular basis.

and am instructed to see him again today.

.

.

so.

this is getting to be a boring thing for you all to hear all the time.

.

but letting you know

i’m gone from my beloved peanut here.

yet. once again.

only this time i’m thinking for real and for long.

.

i am hurting that i have to give up the peanut

and each one of you.

it has given me nothing but joy sharing our lives here.

.

how odd to feel such love for people i’ve never even met.

.

but I DO.

i love each one of you.

.

you’ve added to my life immeasurably.

i have no aloneness.

.

thank you for being there and for being my friends.

.

i won’t be disconnecting this pc.  i’ll never sell it.

but it must sit dark and quiet now for a long time.

until this malignant hypertension

no longer has the word malignant in it.

.

i know that you all wish me well.

.

believe me !

you are my friends.

you are every one of you . . .

dear to me.

i feel the love. the caring. the prayers. the white light.

and the universe is on my side.

it all helps.

.

you're loved

.

the captain

my beloved wicked pirate

will turn off the comments now.

i don’t want to be tempted to get back on here and even read them.

then i’d try to reply…

then i’d be disobeying orders and feeling guilty…

knowing that i’m supposed to stay off this thing completely.

so . . .  no point.

.

my main objective is to get WELL.

and live a long time.

long enough at least to see what jacob and blake are going to become!

.

the marine is being my rock.

as usual.

and i really trust and like the new cardiologist.

so i’m in good hands all around.

.

never say never.

if i’m ever eventually allowed back on this thing i’ll be back.

.

so i’ll just say the old ending we have here . . .

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

it’s been a super swell ride!

.

nite snoopy

snoopy hug to one and all.

Aug 112014
 

 

 ”  thought you might need a laugh “

.

 

that’s what the email said yesterday.

the two

reve’ and  sgt mike.

.

don’t they make a handsome couple?

though this was taken before he made

master sergeant.

.

only a few years ago but they still look like this.

i wish i knew their secret.

they simply do not seem to age!

.

the email was from reve’

she and i are very close.

.

she is the marine’s daughter~in~law . . .

married to his son

master sgt mike.

.

they’re stationed at kirtland AFB in albuquerque.

apparently a nice high desert dry climate . . .

for most people

BUT

 not so kind to the sinuses of one little inhabitant there.

( more about that later )

.

.

it goes without saying that i adore this couple.

and

that their two sons

blake and jacob

are the

lights of my life.

.

constant followers already know all this.

but since i’ve come back home here to the peanut

from my other blog . . .

.

the cozy minimalist

http://thecozyminimalist.com

.

i thought any new readers might need to be filled in.

.

.

all of you constant followers already know jacob.

jacob in glassescourtesy:20th century fox and alvinwikipedia.com

.

YUP.

that’s our jacob.

well.

his alter ego doppleganger!

LOLOL.

.

he’s a cool little dude.

.

if you followed

the cozy minimalist

 you know what a

jacobism

is.

.

jacob just turned 10 years old a couple months ago.

he WAS 9 going on 25.

NOW we think he is 10 going on 40.

.

jacob is the adorable little brother

of

handsome big brother . . .  blake.

.

jacob is a unique guy.

he is definitely his own man.

AND

he was just born being  funny.

i think some kids are.

.

and what’s neat about jacob  is . . .

he never knows when he’s being funny.

that’s the nice part.

.

AND

jacob has his own unique style.

always has.

he really would like his own tuxedo.

he feels a real kinship to james bond.

.

james bondcourtesy: columbia pictures

.

jacob used to wear a clip~on tie.

but only recently he taught himself to tie his own.

you can read about that on the cozy minimalist.

the name of the post was

.

‘  the real enemy  ‘

it’s in the sidebar on that site.

.

and don’t miss on the same blog

‘  jacobisms  ‘

also in the sidebar of old posts . . .

alphabetically.

.

it’s definitely worth meeting our jacob!

LOL.

.

but then YES.

I KNOW.

i’m a little partial.

.

nowadays

he wears a real man’s tie.

yes.

it’s a bit too long.  but he likes it.

he doesn’t wear it all the time.

but he likes to wear it on occasions.

.

AND

for his birthday he received a little black fedora.

.

i’m not certain if this was a

“tongue in cheek” gag gift from his parents

or if it’s for real . . .

but he likes it.

and that’s all that matters.

.

and you know something ?

he looks GREAT in it!!!

LOLOL.

.

in spite of his dubious but individual sense of style . . .

he’s all boy.

and as rough and tumble as they come.

in his short life

he’s been thrown off a horse requiring stitches

broken his left arm

and

 he swims like a fish.

mostly underwater.

.

his favorite things are . . .

.

doing wheelies on his bike

going much too fast for his auntie tam’s comfort level

jumping with it off ramps

.

eating cinnamon crunch cereal

and

his favorite . . . chinese food

not together of course.

well . . .

at least not that i know of!

.

playing army

in which i always wind up exhausted . . .

LOL.

.

playing king arthur and roxanne

i’m always roxanne.

he calls me roxie.

.

and from the subject of the email she sent to me yesterday

he’s also apparently

and avid fan of commercials on television !

.

well . . .

you get the picture.

he’s my buddy jacob is.

.

i love him and his brother blake so much it sometimes hurts.

they are my special boys.

.

most of you already know that.

BUT

i thought those of you who are new to the peanut and my other blog

the cozy minimalist

might need a little background information.

.

so . . .

back to the email . . .

that was sent to me yesterday from reve’.

and yes

it did make me

LAUGH!

.

apparently jacob had a headache.

.

JACOB

”  mom. where’s my viagra? “

.

REVE’

” what? “

.

JACOB

” i can’t find any viagra “

.

REVE’

” uuuu WHAT? “

.

JACOB

  ” you know  . . . you told me i take it for my allergy headaches “

.

REVE’

” ALLEGRA  jacob !   for allergies “

.

JACOB

” oh. “

 ” well what is viagra for?  old man headaches? “

.

REVE’

” yes jacob.  and we don’t have any in this house. “

.

whew.

that’s good to know.

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

on the left

jacob is the cool one on the left you know.

.

courtesy: 20th century fox

Aug 092014
 

world renowned

LAS VEGAS

.

vegascourtesy: haas school of business

.

vegas is a place i’ve never particularly wanted to visit.

.

i’ve never gambled.

i have nothing against it.

i just never thought it very sensible.

.

my odds however have made me think

i’ve been missing out!

.

apparently i fall into the

1 %

group in life.

.

and with odds like that

i really should try my luck

in

VEGAS!

.

it would be more fun than

taking a lot of pills and keeping calm

and cool

and eating

cardboard!

LOLOL.

.

implanting a stent into your heart

is a very common occurrence now

for hundreds of thousands of people.

.

stent implant

.

most people go home the same day.

the next day they’re out playing golf!

.

it’s not a fun thing.

it hurts terribly when they push the balloon through the artery.

you’re awake the whole time.

you can even watch the monitor and see them messing around in there.

IF

you’re so inclined.

.

LOLOL !!!

i was not inclined !

my interest in science is simple amazement.

i have no desire to see it in action.

.

they’re inside your heart and you can watch?

.

a weird feeling indeed !!!

.

so . . .

here’s the las vegas wannabe girl . . .

.

YUP.

i fell into the

1 %

of poor schmucks

that experience cardiac arrest during it.

.

flatline

.

well.

in my case it was

after it.

in the recovery room.

.

and just for the record . . .

i can’t say enough GOOD about nurses.

they literally saved my life.

.

they are

under rated.

and

under paid.

and

over worked.

the good ones are anyway.

.

and there are a LOT of GOOD ones out there.

.

.

YUP !

VEGAS ODDS !

1 %

.

roulette

.

$10,000 please

on

red  34

.

YAYYYY !!!!

.

yup.

i can see how people might get addicted to that !

.

LOLOL.

.

though i wish my odds were more about winning

and less about losing.

losing good health that is.

.

i’m starting to think of it now

as the

1 % factor.

it has a whole lot in common with

MURPHY’S LAW.

.

.

because

it turns out

that

 i have one amazingly dubious thing in common

with the following group of people below . . .

who are prone to the same  . . .

.

malignant hypertension.

.

it’s hard to control.

and it’s life threatening.

.

that’s always nice to hear.

.

young

american black males

.

black male

courtesy: atlantablackstar.com

.

and

not so frequently but still susceptible

oddly enough . . .

.

very young children

.

and

a very few young athletes.

.

now.

i fall into

NONE

of those categories.

.

i’m just a little old white lady.

living simply

and quietly

mostly happy and calm.

.

so

there you go again . . .

what did i tell ya?

.

i’ve got the odds!

the

LAS VEGAS ODDS !!!

the

1 %  !!!

.

show girls

ahhh . . . .

sweet memories.

takes me back to my own short career as a short show girl.

LOLOL.

only . . .  remember?

i’m thinking i’m  partial of course . . .

but our costumes were prettier than these!

.

if you’re a new peanut reader . . .

that fun post is in the sidebar of old posts titled

just the old me. the old old old me.

.

and i’m getting older even as we speak old bean.

.

and speaking of old.

the older i get

the younger these doctors get !

.

my new cardiologist is about 6 feet 2 inches tall.

he’s young

well.  probably in his very early 40′s.

and

he’s built like a line backer on a winning football team.

.

i liked him.

it’s early yet.

but i think i’m glad he’s on my new team.

.

i found out from him yesterday

that one of the meds they’ve had me on for hypertension

has a RE~BOUND effect.

.

when it leaves your system your pressure spikes even higher.

and since mine is already way too high

it puts me back into the malignant realm.

.

i go there by myself often enough

WITHOUT a pill to do it!!!

SHEESH!!!!

.

but

if i stop this pill immediately it could kill me.

.

so

he is going to ‘wean’ me off it.

for the next 4 days i take only 1/2 of one of it

along with the rest of the meds

AND

i stay

ultimately

CALM

COOL

(literally.  the heat right now is my enemy)

and

POSITIVE.

meaning my thoughts.

which stay pretty positive mostly.

and did you know that talking on the phone can raise your blood pressure?

who knew?

.

he thinks i can have the surgery in september.

but i have more heart tests ahead before we can go there.

.

.

i didn’t say it out loud

BUT

good grief charlie brown!

i’m thinking the torn rotator cuff might just heal itself by then!!!

.

so.

now you know what i know.

.

he has given me yet another new medicine.

AAAGGGHHHH!

i’m currently taking

6

different prescriptions for this crazy hypertension.

.

but

no complaints here.

they’re keeping me alive.

i’m thinking positive.

getting well.

well . . .

better anyway!

LOL.

.

and for the record . . .

i have the greatest friends in all of you.

many have even sent me personal emails and messages on my last post.

i thank you so much.

.

snoopy and thanks

courtesy: the fabulous charles schulz

.

♥ ♥ ♥

.

i don’t think i’ve ever had such caring wonderful people in my life as friends.

.

i want you to know this . . .

i read all of your posts.  when i miss a few days i always catch up.

i don’t always comment each time.  my energy level wanes.

but i’m there.

and i’m thinking how wonderful you are!

.

here’s a snoopy hug to you!

and

here’s to good times

good health

and

joy

to ALL of us!

i lift my glass to you old bean.

.

til soon.

til soon old bean!

.

Aug 032014
 

 hello.

i’m still here old bean !

 

puppy in icecutestpaws.com

.

just chilling out.

or

like this little puppy . . .

TRYING my darndest  TO.

LOLOL.

.

it’s

super

HOT

and

HUMID

here where i live.

.

and

i’m

just very happy

to hibernate

in this kind of climate.

.

thank goodness for

GREAT BOOKS !

and

BBC !

and

AIR CONDITIONING !

not necessarily in that order.

.

.

am seeing the new cardio

on august 8th.

expecting him to do miracles prior to surgery.

.

i’m doing my part . . .

staying calm

and eating card board.

.

ignoring the  ‘stupidity reminder ‘ pain in shoulder

until then.

only it’s getting harder to ignore.

LOLOL .

patience not being my best gift.

.

til then

living like a monk in a cave.

.

or

a

bug in a rug.

.

or

a

oh.  enough already.

you get the picture.

.

.

.

hope all of you are enjoying

your very best idea of summertime !

.

i know you are.

.

    so . . .

alas.  alack.

and

as it were . . .

.

keep you eye on the ball . . .

.

puppy in pool

.

and . . .

.

always keep your cool.

.

cool puppy

.

.

.

ALWAYS.

always cool

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

Jul 272014
 

bob marley

i like that.

and

i liked him and his music.

      remember ?

” be happy “

that song just always makes me happy!

.

i love island style music.

reggae?

.

i call it island music.

it has an ease to it.  a light heartedness that i love.

and a beat that is guaranteed to make you want to dance.

.

he died far too young.

.

important words those.

 

bob marley

.

i have always had some kind of inner strength.

the marine and i both have it.

turns out we had to use it while very young in our lives.

so it was learned early.

.

we had parents that had it.

is it a dna thing?  can it really be passed on?

i don’t know.

.

there are all kinds of strength.

.

movers

.

you might have a clue about this post right there.

.

i am what you would consider a small person.

even though i weigh a lot more now than i EVER used to!

i never weighed over 105 pounds throughout my adult life.

.

  and now . . .

. . .  to make matters worse . . .

alas. alack and as it were.

.

DANG !

i’ve even shrunk an inch in the last two years or so.

now i’m  5 feet 1 inch tall.

.

it was kinda cool to get to say

i’m 5 two.

5 one just doesn’t have the same clout.

you know?

.

actually though

i’ve never really minded being short.

 it is a hassle to reach things.  like in the grocery store.

.

but all in all it’s not so bad.

you’re closer to all toilet seats.  that’s nice.

LOLOL.

.

 even though they tell me my bones are strong . . .

i’ve still shrunk that one inch.

and darn it!  i have good posture too.

why on earth can’t i shrink that inch around my waistline instead?

that’s what i want to know.

.

so that was kind of a rude awakening.

.

just comes to some of us with age i guess.

i don’t think it happens to everybody.  or then maybe it eventually does.

the problem is i didn’t have too much to begin with . . . so i hate to lose any more.

.

i got my full growth in height at the age of  12.

never grew another inch.

SO

 apparently the notice on the back of the visor in cars

applies to me as well ?

and to all of us the size of a healthy

12 year old?

like my tracy too?

.

but i’m driving!

I CAN”T GET IN THE BACK SEAT!

LOL.

.

sbwarning

.

i actually think very little about it.

and now . . .

i always wear the seat belt and will take my chances with the

deadly air bag.

.

BUT

one day a few years ago . . .

.

before i started obeying this law to the letter . . .

i was stopped once by an officer who said that i wasn’t wearing my seat belt.

.

i WAS wearing the bottom part.  just not the cross part that laid irritatingly rubbing my neck.

he said

” i’m just going to give you a warning this time.  but i want you to start wearing all of it. “

i thanked him profusely and replied

very courteously i thought . . .

.

”  i’m sorry officer.  i will.  but it’s rather pointless anyway.

it says the air bag is going to kill me . “

.

he didn’t glare. he just smiled. shook his head and said sternly walking away . . .

” WEAR IT. “

.

i’m sure he was thinking

” another smart a ~ ~  little old lady “

.

there are things we do that are not smart.

.

not wearing your full seat belt is one of them.

i wear it all now.

.

tell me . . .

what would you think all these things below have in common?

.

tennis balltoms river country club

.

.

falling coconuts

.

.

paddlinggoadventurewatersports.blogspot.com

.

stairs parisritournell.com

.

table pain

.

well.

no.

i wasn’t playing tennis at a beautiful country club.

.

and no.

i wasn’t hit by a falling coconut.

wherever it is that

the coconuts fall so alarmingly that they

have to put up that sign !

LOLOL!

.

nope.

i wasn’t strenuously paddling a canoe in beautiful waters

.

and no.

i wasn’t climbing those long beautiful stairs

in monmartre  in paris.

.

and

YES.

that is exactly like my new little english solid wood

console table.

.

it now proudly sits

on the wall between my fireplace and big picture window

here in the little

wren house.

.

you should see it old bean!

it looks especially lovely with my white wicker chairs.

very english.  which i love.

.

  i have a green plant in a large old white round pottery planter on it.

and a large new england style white port~hole mirror on the wall above it.

beautiful  and elegant and simple.

.

there’s a small silver picture frame holding the piece of cardboard

behind the glass

that my jacob wrote a message on to me  . . . saying that i’m his buddy.

it’s sitting by the plant on the table.

it’s a treasure you know.

.

all in all i’m very pleased.

well.

except for the gist of the story.

.

bored yet?

i am.

i mean with the gist.

not the table.

it seems i’m singing the same old song second verse.

.

 on july 9th

5 days after the marine had left for most of this month to

camp in the mountains of colorado

.

i decided to buy that small solid wood console table

with a useful drawer

for my extra keys … address book …

and small desk clutter of necessary things.

.

it’s very beautiful.  we’ve established that!

.

SO.

i brought it home.

it was also 98 degrees outside.

heat index of 101.

not good for wood.

or even people for that matter.

.

so the option of leaving it in the car til a cooler day . . .

or weeks later . . .

when the marine would be around to help . . .

not an option.

 the marine was to be gone most all of the month.

and in this new place . . . i don’t know my neighbors.

they all work.

these are my feeble excuses.

.

i had a full cloth bag of groceries and my purse in my right hand.

.

so i carried the table braced on my hip  . . . the way we women do . . .

and held it there with my left out~stretched arm . . .

and

the sack of groceries and my purse were in my right arm

as i climbed the stairs.

.

i made the first flight of stairs to monmartre .  i mean my apartment

just fine.

at the landing where i turn and go up the next flight of stairs . . .

i lost my balance

.

JUST A LITTLE BIT !!!

.

i twisted to regain it and not drop the table.

big mistake there.

the

TWIST.

.

god forbid i should put down the sack of groceries and use BOTH arms.

or even that i make TWO TRIPS

and use both arms to carry the little table.

DUH. 

oh tammy. sometimes with you i simply despair.

.

i managed to make it to the top

and get the table in place against the wall in my little wren house.

just where i wanted it.

and it’s a good thing.

.

because by the time i did all that . . . and put the groceries away . . .

the damage was done of course.  earlier.

.

OUCH !!!

.

WOW.

my left arm really hurt.

i’d guessed i’d sprained or strained a few muscles there.

.

and now . . .

.

to make an OVER LONG

BORING STORY

shorter

.

after 2 weeks of pain that wasn’t getting any better and even getting worse

much worse.

as a matter of fact

 a bit excruciating

.

enough to make me sick at my stomach

and to raise the old BP to alarming heights . . .

.

and after a trip to the ER with diagnosed

malignant hypertension

yet once again

.

and

then

the following week . . .

an

MRI

FROM HELL

.

and by the way . . .

nobody told me what THAT was going to be like!

.

my julie knows.

the lovely artist blog owner of

‘ i love a cloudy day ‘

.

it’s wonderful and she’s wonderful.

and it’s in my side bar.  you should visit her!

she’s an inspiration.

believe me.  she knows.

.

she knows it’s like tons of machine guns going off in your head.

resounding as if you’re in a metal barrel.

my own went on for a solid 35 minutes.

the tech’s voice kept coming on inside a merciful pause every now and then

saying

” you need to relax. “

RELAX ???

it normally would have taken only 20 minutes of that blasting.

so it was my own fault apparently that it took 35.

.

horrible. just horrible.

it made me think of my beloved whales and dolphins

and all the other sea mammals all over again in the post i just did.

only they die from it being much worse.

i cannot EVEN imagine what it would be like

if it were worse.  it was painful even as it was.

.

anyway.

.

the orthopedic surgeon who will operate on my

dislocated shoulder and torn rotator cuff

has sent me to a new cardiologist.

i am not currently operable.

.

quote

” you have malignant hypertension.

it is dangerous. you could die.

i don’t want to alarm you but unless we get it under control i cannot operate. “

.

i told him it’s the reason i had to take early retirement at 60.

it was then

240/160.

it is nothing new to me.

i should have been dead years ago according to the numbers.

.

AND I’M STILL HERE !!!

.

but i think i’m beginning to push my luck just a little maybe.

lest you think i’m not taking it seriously enough.

i really am old bean.

.

i cannot help that i am a smart a ~ ~  little old lady.

it just comes out sometimes!  it does!

.

so.

i am being referred to this new cardiologist to get it down.

i see him on

august 8th.

that’s the soonest they could get me in.

boy these guys are busy.

.

i really like my orthopedic surgeon.

he’s adorable.

he’s the same one who set my wrist and hand when i broke it

climbing up on a chair and a phone book to hang a picture

back in 2007.

i broke it right before lunch that day.  on my porcelain tile entryway.

.

i remember thinking . . .

i’ll hang this picture before i have a sandwich.

so.

i climbed precariously.  the picture never was hung.

instead

i fell about 6 feet is all. but i landed on that hard surface.

.

i know what you’re thinking.

and

i have never claimed to be smart.

.

i didn’t have insurance having just retired and not yet old enough for

medicare.

.

and i couldn’t afford surgery.

but i could afford for him to set it.  and he let me pay it out.

and i certainly couldn’t afford the hospital!

so i waited in his waiting room all afternoon.

.

he stayed after hours in his clinic and set my bones.

all he’d had for lunch that day was one snicker bar.

.

he told me then that i was

” one tough cookie. “

.

he had just inserted 4 huge needles full of novacain to numb my arm.

i said

” in the olden days you would just have had me drink whiskey to do this. “

he replied

” in the olden days i’d have drunk the whiskey myself before doing this! “

.

LOLOL!

we had a good time.

.

you have to love a surgeon with a sense of humor!

and he must have been HUNGRY at 7pm with only a snicker bar for lunch!

.

so when i saw him last week i took him a dozen cookies.

to remember me by.

.

he said they were much better than a snicker bar.

and i got a big snoopy hug from him.

.

SO

here we go again old bean.

.

and as you remember

those of you who had to read and hear all about my

entertaining ?

operation

last september in the posts here on the peanut

they’re still in the side bar

.

the first one is titled . . .

o day on the horizon

.

    and the only other one is . . .

captive’s report

.

if anyone new to the peanut wants to know the really fun stuff

of the ordeal.

you can read them.

.

my motto is . . . always . . .

you just might as well laugh if you can.

it’s the magical best medicine of all.

.

BUT

as you also know

it’s not a favorite past time of mine to have this kind of thing going on.

and i have to admit in all truth . . .

last week i was depressed for awhile.

.

but now i’m fine.

.

and the marine is nearby . . . not in the mountains now.

.

another motto i like is for

whatever it is . . .

” this too shall pass. “

.

and

.

” it could be worse “

.

that’s a good one.  the best one really.

because

stacked up to the holocaust . . . whatever it is . . .

is a piece of cake.

.

i have NO CAUSE EVER to complain.

.

that’s one way i handle pain.

i compare anything bad  to the people who endured the holocaust.

and it works every time.

it snaps me right out of my own self pity.

.

still.

i can’t say as i enjoy it.  even if i did bring it upon myself.

.

but then . . . who does enjoy things like this out there?  anyone?

oh. well.

YES.

you masochists maybe.

LOL.

.

there’s one in every crowd.

.

well.

i’ll leave you with this final thought at my own stupidity

for causing it

.

displeasedthebritishbooknerd.blogspot.com

.

yup.

i’m very displeased with myself old bean.

there i was thinking i was just short

but strong.

.

turns out i’m short and

weak!

.

and all i have to say . . .

even though i’m immensely

GRATEFUL

for

my orthopedic surgeon this year

just as i was for my endocrinologist surgeon last year

oh

AND

the anesthesiologist that yelled at them in the OR

.

” THIS IS NOT SURGICAL PRESSURE!

GET ME HER CARDIOLOGIST ON THE PHONE.  NOW!

.

hmm . . .  in the movies they always say STAT!

but what a guy.

  my hero.

he’s the important one you know.

the one who has your life in his hands.

.

the rest of ‘em better watch out!

you know who you are . . .

the one that took 10 tries to get an IV started in my

dinky veins.

6 tries in one arm.  4 in the other.

and

FINALLY got it in the back of my hand.

.

and

the ones who came in 3 times a day and night putting

painful shots into my belly.

.

now if they’d been taking out some

FAT

from that little belly i wouldn’t have minded.

.

i’m just sayin’

you know WHOM you are

and

WATCH OUT.

.

angry cat

.

til soon old bean.

til soon!

the fun is just starting.

stick around.

Jul 232014
 

we have lost a beloved

oklahoma boy.

.

james garner

1928 ~ 2014

.

he’s from my city.

norman oklahoma.

.

in a shaded little park

there is a memorial staute to him.

the statue is of him as

‘ maverick ‘

.

a popular role that endeared him to thousands

of fans of the tongue in cheek western.

.

sorry.

such poor picture quality of such a beautiful man.

.

today the statute of jim as maverick  has flowers around it.

to mourn his passing.

staute maverick

.

this picture was taken when the news was first heard

of his death in his home in california a few days ago.

there are many many flowers there now.

.

he was well loved in his home town.

he never ‘ outgrew ‘ his sense of friends and home.

he came back often.  his brother jack was here then.

.

and

he never played the

STAR.

.

though he definitely was one.

one unique

in that he easily moved back and forth from

the big movie screen roles

to the small tv screen series

with equal ease

always.

.

remember

rockford files ?

.

long running

.

.

he was nominated for an academy award for his role

in

murphy’s romance

with sally field.

.

.

he starred in two wonderful romantic comedies with

his dear friend

doris day.

.

‘ the thrill of it all ‘

james and doris thrill of it all

.

and

‘ move over darling ‘

.

doris and james

she said in an interview recently

that they talk on the phone together

every day and have for years.

a friendship that lasted through all that time.

.

jim is also unique in hollywood in that he was

a loving husband to his wife lois

for 60 years until his death this week.

.

an amazing record in the film industry!

they have two daughters.

.

here he is with gigi.

.

.

and making faces with daddy

.

.

he served in the korean war and was recipient of

two purple hearts.

.

he made over 50 feature films.

westerns

war films

romantic comedies

dramatic roles

action films

.

he did it all.

and he never thought of himself as a movie star.

he said he was just making a living.

.

james garner was

.

a gentleman.

witty.

warm.

funny.

.

he did most of his own stunts always

and later paid the price in knee problems.

.

he did his own driving in

‘ grand prix ‘

.

.

his first leading ladies on the big screen

were

audrey hepburn and shirley maclaine.

.

not bad for a start!

.

i read an article once that asked different actresses

a rather personal question.

the question was . . .

” who is the best kisser you’ve ever worked with?”

most of them hemmed and hawed . . .  dodging the question.

.

three of them answered outright without hesitation.

” james garner “

.

those three were

julie andrews

sally field

and

doris day

.

LOLOL.

i’m sure he would just love me putting that in this homage to him.

.

he was not a braggart type of man.

.

he never forgot his humble beginnings.

.

he was good friends with clint eastwood.

thus . . .

later in his career was convinced by clint to co~star in

‘ space cowboys ‘

.

i still enjoy his movies with doris.

but

i think my two favorites are

his own favorite . . .

‘ the americanization of emily ‘

with julie andrews

.

and

the fabulous hilarious

.

.

‘ victor victoria ‘

also with julie.

.

.

he plays a gangster and she  . . .

well.  if you haven’t seen it . . .

i don’t want to spoil it for you.

you just should see it old bean!

.

it’s set in paris.

and i love jazz.

.

and i love to laugh.

 .

and i love those two together

.

so !

james and victor

.

the two of them also did a charming christmas special for tv.

i own the dvd and watch it every year at christmas time.

‘ one special night ‘

.

one day once upon a time . . .

in another lifetime now . . .

my own beloved oklahoma boy . . .

my bob . . .

well.

i’ll start at the beginning.

.

every day of our lives together

my bob

called me at lunch time.

he just always did from the very beginning.

he never missed.

.

i answered the phone this one day.

he always said the same thing in greeting . . .

” hi good lookin’.  how’s my girl? “

.

we had a code too.

if i was ever held at knife or gunpoint or in danger

i was supposed to say

” oh hello george!”

.

LOLOLOL.

i never had to use our code thank god.

.

anyhow.

this one day he called . . . and after his usual greeting . . .

.

” you’ll never guess who i had breakfast with this morning! “

.

i couldn’t guess. i hate guessing.

.

” well.  i had some plans to go over

and so i was sitting in a booth at howard johnson’s having coffee.

and in walks jack bumgarner and asks if he can join me. “

.

( bob knew jack bumgarner from living here his whole life )

.

” jack said he was waiting for jim to join him.”

.

and just a little later . . . in walks

james garner.

.

bob knew jack but had never met james.

.

so.

my husband bob spent the whole morning

laughing and talking and enjoying breakfast with one of my

 MY MOST FAVORITIST

movie stars !

.

and never once called to see if i wanted to join them !!!!

.

well.

of course he couldn’t have done that.

.

you and i both know that now.

.

but . . . at the time

and at my young age . . .

i sorta kinda thought he should have!

.

i’m sure if he had . . . at the time . . .

james garner would have been just as nice and sweet about it

as i loudly told my husband he would have been !

.

my bob was almost every bit as handsome as mr garner.

and my bob

was definitely all man.

but he also did say this.

.

” my god. i see why women fall all over him.

he’s the best looking guy i’ve ever seen.  amazing really. “

.

he also said

” he’s a really funny guy.  got some great stories. “

.

” you’d never know he’s a movie star. “

.

and the cutest i thought . . . was . . .

.

” PLUS!  we got GREAT SERVICE !!! “

.

LOLOL.

.

you’ll be missed james garner.

you were

quality.

.

rare these days.

and so much the more appreciated.

.

rest in peace beloved oklahoma boy.

.

86 years of a wonderful life.

.

til soon old bean.

til soon.

Jul 212014
 

 

 

 

” nope.

i didn’t eat those cookies.

.

i’ve been here taking a nap

the whole time. “

.

doxie puppy

.

hope you have a great week.

and

don’t forget

take time to eat some cookies!

.

LOL.

.

til soon.

til soon old bean!

.

this post is dedicated to my little friend

papito.

.

he’s on a diet.

and he doesn’t like it.

Jul 182014
 

 

 if the fog

comes in on little cat feet

.

cat in foglatterdaylearning.org

.

then

.

summer

.

 

summer comes in

like young girls in white dresses

.

In the Garden

artist richard emil miller

.

seriously?

.

if i had to dress like that in our heat . . .

well.

the word

swoon

comes to mind.

.

or passing right out

flat

 like a panting lizard

on the desert sand !!!

.

LOLOL.

.

sorry old bean.

and this started off so romantically~like and lovely.

.

but

        well . . .

.

alas

alack

and as it were !

.

to me there is just nothing romantic

or lovely

about

sweat.

.

or

perspiring.

.

or even

glowing

.

my problem is . . .

i don’t perspire and sweat and glow all that much.

.

therefore i stand a better chance of

dehydration

and

heat stroke!!!

.

i know we all love summer !

but

i find most of you who

REALLY

love summer

are those of you who live in

moderate to cooler climates.

.

summer here

is like when you

have

40 below zero winters there !

LOLOL.

.

but

HEY.

i’m not complaining.

.

i watched while so many of you suffered through

what turned out to be one of the

longest

coldest

wettest

is that a word?  it just doesn’t look right does it?

snowiest

winters

on record!!!

.

i thought it would never end for you.

i actually found myself feeling ashamed

that we were so mild and dry.

well.

dry

is always the key word here.

DRY AS A BONE

i believe they call us.

.

so

you go right ahead and enjoy those

wonderful summer days old bean.

the hotter the better for you i say!

.

and i will languish here

in my air conditioned luxury . . .

enjoying

quiet indoor days with books

and the BBC

and refreshing cool beverages . . .

and

maybe a fresh fruit smoothie or two.

.

and i’ll simply pretend

i’m having it in a luscious summer garden

like in the french country cottage blog

.

summer in a glass

her beautiful table settings under huge shade trees

look so inviting.

.

i want to don that glorious off the shoulder

summer edwardian~age

sheer white dress

.

and linger over that fresh fruit smoothie

and pleasantly

GLOW

doncha know!

.

I DO old bean.

.

but . . .

instead . . .

i cannot tell a lie.

.

i simply hibernate here

until the hottest part of this season is over.

.

and that sometimes lately has been

somewhere around the middle of november.

LOLOL !!!

.

but

let not your heart be troubled for moi.

.

that doesn’t stop me from

loving the glimpses of summer.

.

beautiful images

like

these

.

beach umbrella paintingartist kathleen denis

.

beaches

.

whether in paintings or in my own memories

.

the bahamas  in 1981

.

at bahamasthe-bahamas.net

.

or a beloved favorite picture

from my childhood

that always hung in my room.

.

because

i have always loved the sea.

and gram said the little girl looked just like me.

.

remember those

HUGE awful bows?

LOL.

.

little dropsartist jessie willcox smith

.

and

oh

to have the chance

to get up close and personal

with one of the

tiny jewels of summer

.

more precious than all the precious stones

in all the world

.

hummingbirdtrousersintartan.com

.

these are summer treasures

right along with the

heat

and

humidity!

.

but

LO !

guess what ?

forthwith!

.

our little dry hot southwestern central state

has had two

UNBELIEVABLE

days of

cloudy.

rainy.

then

misty

COOLNESS!

YES!

it has!

.

i have my big window open as i’m writing this

and the most heavenly light cool breeze is blowing into the room

here at the little wren house.

.

the temperature yesterday

shattered all records

it never got

higher than  68 degrees.  (20 celsius)

and today

the high is about 70.

IN JULY for pete’s sake!!!

unheard of!

.

all next week of course it is to be about 100 again.

(37.7778 celsius)

.

so

i am lovin’ this record breakin’ cool summer day!

YAY!!!

.

we can go back to glowing next week old bean.

remember your sun screen.

.

til soon.

til soon old bean!

Jul 112014
 

 

 

 

 

SHAME

on you

JAPAN

.

 

japan flag

.

SHAME ON YOU

AMERICAN

NAVY TESTING

.

for good

.

what a travesty.

a global force for good?

.

bear with me here.

and please . . .

read on.

.

the peanut is not a political place.

.

i do not subscribe to the world of

ists

or

isms.

.

i am simply a person who reveres

ALL LIFE.

human

and

otherwise.

.

i hate the blatant and cruel and self serving world

of

POLITICS.

and

 HUGE CORPORATIONS

.

it’s all about money and power and greed

isn’t it.

.

the integrity of the world community

is

GONE.

.

indeed.

 even if it was ever there.

.

this morning i visited my dear friend’s site.

VICKIE

her blog is on my side bar of friends.

home in a heart beat

i read it

and was so touched and emboldened to do

something

anything

.

that i found myself writing my own post on it here too.

.

the post of Vickie’s that i hope you read

is titled

.

extinction is forever

.

posted  july 11, 2014

.

http://homeinaheartbeat.blogspot.com.au/

.

again. so irritating.

 i cannot get that address to turn blue so you can easily access it.

don’t know why!

but you can click on her site on my side bar very easily.

.

i urge anyone reading the peanut to just that.

it is a tour de force.

a magnificent post about something

so important

and so relevant

to

all of us

that it bears reading and passing on.

.

it’s

IMPORTANT.

.

and if we

as the little people of this world who

still

CARE

about important things

.

IF

 we each spread the word to our fellow men and women

.

and let our own leaders know how we feel about it

and

if we support the courage

that is being shown by those who don’t just

talk

but are

out

there

in the front lines

on those

SEAS

.

well

maybe

just maybe

 we can make a difference.

.

here’s something worth thinking about.

.

if somebody hadn’t cared enough

there would still be terrible slavery.

even worse than there is now in so many other places.

and

there would still be the viet nam war going on.

the people helped to end that.

we.

the little people.

we really did.

.

SO

.

in this current issue . . .

we have to hope we can make a difference.

because folks . . .

if we can’t . . .

.

and they

yes

THEY

who are intent upon destroying our oceans

and the balance of life in our oceans

.

they

will lose.

because they are part of us.

and

WE

will lose.

.

without the oceans and the delicate balance therein

we

ALL LOSE.

all over this world.

.

according to official naval reports

American Navy sonar testing will be taking place

from 2014 through 2019.

it has already killed whales and dolphins in the thousands.

.

you say . . .

” why should i be interested in that? “

.

according to the navy itself . . .

this testing in the

atlantic oceans

pacific oceans

gulf of mexico

will result in even more

 thousands upon thousands of deaths

of whales and dolphins and sea turtles.

as well as other mammals of the seas.

.

they admit to their own estimate of

well over 138,500

as

conservative.

.

here is what the death

will be like

as reported by a research reporter of

the Scientific American publication . . .

.

There are no noise cancelling head phones to stop the US Navy’s 235 decibel pressure waves of unbearable pinging and metallic shrieking.

At 200 decibels  the vibrations can rupture your lungs and above 210 decibels the lethal noise can bore straight through your brain until it hemorrhages that delicate tissue.

If you’re not deaf after this devasting sonar blast ~ you are dead.

THIS is the real life of marine mammals during this testing.  Marine mammals destroyed by the US NAVY’S all out acoustic war on the WORLD’S oceans.

The collateral damage of this high intensity military sonar is shocking.

But because all these millions of dying whales and dolphins are too often out of sight ~ they are out of mind.

Renowned Orca researcher Ken Balcomb calls it  ” acoustic holocaust. “

The Scientific American publication calls the military sonar  ” a brutal and inhumane death sentence. “

.

here is what I say .  .  .

.

are we that terrified of our fellow man

and of the ‘threat of terrorism’

that we have to

destroy the balance of life and nature

of our own

world’s

     OCEANS ???

.

frankly my dears

it won’t make a damn.

.

because if we

PERSIST

in destroying our oceans at the rate we’re going

with the sheer pollution of the water itself

.

and

 our continent~size swirls of plastic garbage pits now totaling

FIVE

and ever growing

.

and

the hunting  and slaughtering

of particular species to

extinction

or near extinction

.

we will be destroying something necessary to

our own survival

as a species.

.

then

.

we are doomed anyway.

.

we won’t have to blow each other up.

.

FOR GOD’S SAKE!

we must

WAKE UP

.

we very nearly hunted the sea otter into extinction.

AFLO1-00012965-001

courtesy:bbc.uk.co

.

they were hunted to near oblivion.

.

they are only now making a tiny comeback

thanks to dedicated people helping those left.

.

 about 2000 of them

.

their loss is all connected.

it’s the balance disturbed.

.

their own contribution or rather

LOSS

of it

thereby endangers the kelp in the oceans.

.

 sea otters eat urchins

sea urchins

courtesy:nationalgeographic

.

which eat the

kelp . . .

which supply nutrients and oxygen for other species.

.

and without kelp

the other eco systems break down

and create a ‘desert’ in the oceans.

.

IT IS ALL SUCH A PRECIOUS

BALANCE

isn’t it.

.

the majestic and gentle whales

and intelligent and playful dolphins

and little sea otters

and all the other wonderful necessary sea mammals

and fish and life of all kinds

.

ALL

have a place

a VERY IMPORTANT role

in the balance

.

BUT

with the country of

Japan

whale slaughter japan

courtesy:dailmail.co.uk

.

whale blood

.

slaughtering the whales and dolphins

at their own free will by hundreds upon thousands

while the world watches

and

does

NOTHING

.

and with the country of

America

killing them as well . . .

only

with the machinations of

the industrial military complex

and the excessive sonar testing

.

tests sonar

so that they manage to strand on beaches

bleeding from their eyes and mouths

and dying in incredible pain.

.

these gentle

intelligent creatures

deserve more from us.

.

sonar death

.

what in the world are we doing ?

has our hatred and distrust of each other made us

feel we have every right to inflict our

supposed superiority on the rest of the world’s

natural inhabitants?

.

who are we?

that we feel entitled to do this carnage?

.

this is happening on beaches now all over the world.

america is not the only one testing

these terrible weapons.

.

hundreds and hundreds of these wonderful sea animals

are stranding and dying every day.

.

only a few

.

.

not to mention the damage to be done

by the

 HUGE OIL CORPORATIONS

who will now be allowed to detonate seismic air guns

to locate new oil and gas fields in the oceans.

these seismic guns are

to be shot

with massive underwater blasts

EVERY TEN SECONDS

24/7

for

OVER A YEAR!

.

this is to start soon.

permission has already been granted.

.

so add that to the testing done by the Navy

and the slaughter being done by the Japanese and others

and . . .

well . . .

it just goes on and on and on

.

and it won’t stop.

.

we have come into their home

and we are intently destroying

IT

and

THEM.

.

whales

courtesy:imagesdominica.com

.

SO

what can you do?

what can i do?

.

we can support organizations like

THE SEA SHEPHERD

.

you’ll learn about it on Vicki’s site

and the courageous man at its helm.

.

and on my own i have found several petitions to sign.

to protect the whales and the other sea mammals.

they went to the navy and to my own congressmen.

you could do that very same thing.

numbers count.

.

it might not be much you say?

it’s not enough you say?

and it will do no good you say?

what’s the use you say?

.

all i can reply is . . .

it’s the only way i could sleep tonight

 after reading about all this.

.

remember

.

YOU CAN NEVER UN~KNOW IT

ONCE YOU KNOW.

.

you can email

the secretary of defense

with a simple statement

.

please stop the excessive sonar testing by the navy in our oceans.

protect the important sea mammals who are dying by the thousands.

protect the more important balance of nature in our seas.

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charles.t.hagel.mil@mail.mil

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i know this was very heavy.

and i’m sorry.

i know i may have lost you.

but my conscience wouldn’t let me not post it.

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til soon old bean.

til soon!